Two days after transfer.

Well not quite. At 2:00 ish it will be 2 days since that’s actually about the time they put the baby in me 😂. I had some mild cramping after and that’s about it. It’s so hard for me because obviously you try to feel every little thing going on in your body hoping it’s a sign of things working and baby growing. I never really get any symptoms of pregnancy anyway. I guess that’s why I enjoy being pregnant so much lol. Once I’m for sure pregnant I do usually break out a bit more then normal and I get tired the first trimester but that’s about it.

Our plane ride home last night was crappy to say the least. They made me check a bag even though I knew it would fit. Plus I had specifically asked the people at the desk where you check bags and the man assured me it would be fine. Then as I’m getting on the plane the woman tells me I have to check it!!! Ugggg I was so frustrated. So by the time we got on there was no more open rows so Ricky and I had to sit with strangers. Plus the lady next to me decided the open middle seat was her’s. Not to mention her bag clearly didn’t fit under her seat.

I know it was dumb to get so frustrated over such dumb things but my hormones are crazy and so therefore I’m crazy too! 😂 I’m glad to be home though in my own bed. I slept so great last night. Our dog and cat missed us a lot. 💓 They slept with us last night.

I’m still terrified to test this time and feel the way I did last time. But I’m also terrified of waiting and pretending it’s all going to be perfect and then getting blindsided by the dr calling. I do still have some tests left over from last time in case I decide I want to test. I think I’m going to just enjoy the unknown for awhile longer this time though.

Thanks as always for all the prayers and encouragement. Hopefully this time everything works out perfectly and I get to share much happier news with everyone.

This lady and all her stuff… 🙄
Then she shoved it even closer to me.

Ultrasound to check my lining.

Yesterday we did an ultrasound and blood work to check my uterine lining and blood work for my estrogen levels. Good news was my ultrasound went great and my lining looks to be even better then it did last time!!! I’m at a 10 with still a little over a week to go! So they said we can keep everything the same now. Meaning my meds. I’m still taking Lupron each night and estrogen pills 3 times a day. I’m waiting for them to call me today to let me know when I will be starting all my other meds. Pills and butt shots. 😔☹️😢 I already feel bad for my butt. 😂

We will be flying out on the 15th in the morning and as far as I know transfer still looks good for Friday the 16th. I’ve been praying for this next transfer of this sweet baby boy! I’m excited for this next try. I’m honestly not sure if I’m going to test this time after transfer or not. This was obviously the first time I have ever not been able to share excitement and good news. So I’m honestly scared to test again and not see good news and feeling as bad as I did last time. I know I will feel bad even if I don’t test and get bad news. I’m just not sure what I will do.

Thanks as always to everyone for all the love and support. I’ll be sure to update more this coming week.

See that triple stripe! 🥰 I want to be nice and fluffy and cozy for baby boy!!!
Here’s where some of my crazy comes from. 😂

Ultrasound 2 with blood work!

Today was my second ultrasound and my uterus looks great. I have the triple stripe! Other ivf moms and surrogates know what this is and it’s a good thing 😂. Basically my body is doing what it’s supposed to. I’m still taking Lupron injections each night and taking estrogen pills 3 times a day! It’s all coming together.

I can’t believe 2 weeks from today we will be putting in a tiny baby embryo. I already love this little guy or gal! I also purchased some pregnancy tests today when I was at the store so I could do some early testing before my hcg blood draw. They only had 8 so I got them all! 😂 I may check target’s selection out when I go get my coffee pods later. I’m pretty picky about the tests I like. I actually love the cheap 88 cent ones from Walmart.

They have thicker red lines so I feel like even when they are super faint you can see a bit of a better shadow on them. Things are getting exciting from here on out. Also the lady behind me today at the checkout line seemed to have no idea about social distancing. She got so close I had to ask her to back up! I’ve never understood people who get so close that you can basically feel them breathing on you. Anyway this is all until next week then!

Only 8 tests I obviously need more.
This was before she moved even closer to me and I asked her to take a couple steps back! 😳

Today was ultrasound day.

Today I went for an ultrasound to make sure my body was responding well to the meds. I also get to start some estrogen today! This is great news because the Lupron makes me have hot flashes and be extra grouchy. The estrogen will level me out again and they will begin building my lining up to where they want it to put baby in. We have about 3 weeks before transfer now. The shots have been going well I’m basically a pro at them since I’ve done this 3 times already. I’m already excited and thinking about pregnancy tests and baby kicks. My next ultrasound is next week and I’ll do blood work with that one also. Until then I’ll keep praying for baby and my body to do what it needs too. let’s also pray for Ricky dealing with my slight mood issues and hot flashes. I’m stealing blankets and then kicking them all off. 😂

Just a silly pic!

9 Weeks!

Well we skipped week 8… Oops time gets away from me! We had another dr appointment yesterday and had a ultrasound too! Baby B is starting to look like a actual real baby! I took a video and sent it to J so she could see. The baby was even wiggling around in there, so adorable! They also said the heart rate was 172 this time. I’m feeling really good other then just being so darn tired! Although the last couple of days I have felt like my energy is coming back woohoo. I do get slightly nauseous from time to time but nothing bad at all. I’m just getting excited for the second trimester so I can start feeling the baby move that’s my favorite part! I’ll go back to the dr at 12 weeks so that’s only 3 weeks away. It will just be a regular appointment I don’t think I will have an ultrasound or anything.

Now let’s see what baby B is doing this week!

Would you believe your baby is only an embryo for one more week and is already developing into a fetus? She’s now about one inch long, the size of a medium green olive (but no martinis, please). The head has straightened out and is more fully developed and the ears are continuing to grow, making baby look more human. Plus, toes are visible, and all of baby’s essential organs (heart, brain, kidneys, liver and lungs) have begun to develop. Your soon-to-be-fetus is also making spontaneous movements of her arms and legs now that minuscule muscles are beginning to develop, though you won’t feel your tiny dancer for at least another month or two. While it’s way too early to feel anything, it’s not too early to hear something (possibly). Your baby’s heart is developed enough — and has grown large enough — for its beats to be heard with a Doppler, a handheld ultrasound device that amplifies the lub-dub sound the heart makes. But don’t worry if your practitioner can’t pick up the sound of your baby’s heartbeat yet. It just means your shy gal is hiding in the corner of your uterus or has her back facing out, making it hard for the Doppler to find its target. In a few weeks, or at your next visit, that miraculous sound is certain to be audible for your listening pleasure.

I’m going crazy!!!!

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It has only been 3 days!!!! Into my 2ww!!! We are all so excited and nervous. I’m trying to tune into any and every little thing my body may be feeling or doing! I will say the day after and yestersay I had some mild cramping nothing horrible but noticeable. The first day I thought this was maybe in my head (wishful thinking) but then yesterday it kept happening. So it was true! So what do I do GOOGLE. Bad idea lol it says it could be many things it could be great the baby implanting (what were all hoping) or just from the procedure. So we have all talked about poas (peeing on a stick)  I have always said I just want to do what they want! They said whatever I want!!! Lol but we ultimately decided we will. Were doing it together Sunday morning. I have been praying that we see something just a little line. Ill be so so sad if this dosnt work. I know it sounds crazy but I love this baby that little ball of cells is a baby that I want so very badly to give to Jon and Molly. I have never lost a baby myself and I know this will not be easy for me if I don’t turn out to be pregnant. Then I think if this will be hard for me how incredibly hard this will be for them. I also know if this dosnt work we will keep trying so that makes me feel good too. Also if the test does show negative that dosnt mean it dosnt have time to show positive. We will still have the beta test that will tell us for sure! Ill be sure to update sunday morning so please keep thinking and praying for us!