Retired or Not….

Hello everyone who has kept up since day one or welcome if you are new! I love that I can see that people all over the world have seen and read my little blog posts. It’s crazy to think that this all started 9 years ago. I hope by me being open and honest through all this it has helped others. I hope women who have struggled getting pregnant have felt encouraged, uplifted, joy and most of all seen!

Because of my journey to help others I have read so many stories of women who want nothing more then to be a mom. I have women reach out to me probably once a month wanting to know more about surrogacy and how it all works. I love trying to help in any capacity that I can. Infertility is a dark difficult place for so many women. I truly wish I could help everyone! I’m inspired by these women who speak up and speak out about the pain, discouragement and disappointment they face. I’m also sensitive to the fact that so many cry and suffer in silence sometimes. I can only try to imagine the way it all must feel. I’m truly sorry.

I hope that my choice to help will spark an interest in others so that they may also help someone somewhere. Obviously having babies for others is not for everyone and I know I’m a bit of an oddity for loving it all so much. But I also know there are others like me and even if you can’t do something like this you can be inspired to do things to help others and make this world a better more beautiful place. Donate blood or plasma sign up to donate a kidney. Check into bone marrow donation. Foster children who need love. (This is also on my to do list) 🥰 Donate time at animal rescues, food banks or women’s shelters. Help the homeless. Honestly the list could go on and on.

Now before I get too far off topic… As we all know I always say every pregnancy is my last pregnancy until well the next last pregnancy. 😂

After my last pregnancy I was definitely sure I would be done because of some of the complications I had at the end. While I know they were very common in pregnancy and somewhat normal. To me they were very scary and concerning since I’ve never had anything except basically picture perfect pregnancy’s and deliveries. (Minus one c section and breech delivery) 😆

So I was on the road to finding my new normal after pregnancy and babies have filled my last 12 years of life. Retirement was off to an okish start you could say. Until I got the call and was asked about coming out of my so called retirement and doing one more!

I know I know insert all the gasps, shock and confusion here. 😂

I know you are all thinking who asked? Before I always went through an agency and found these couples to help. I definitely wasn’t on a search this time. But sometimes life just works in fun little ways and things turn out perfect.

This time it was someone I considered a friend. ❤️ It’s funny because I only knew her because of wait for it…. MOLLY! My first Baby mama. Its just so crazy how the world works sometimes. Molly tried to get me to help her have a baby years ago before I ever even met Jen. The timing just wasn’t right. So then when the timing was right I was equal parts shocked, honored, excited and sad that she would ask me. I’ll get to the sad part later. I have had some fun times in Chicago on my girl’s trips! I can’t even talk about how crazy and fun our night on the town was. I partied HARD this particular night it was a treat for all of Chicago and the girls that were there! 😂 So after literally seeing me at my craziest party girl self you could imagine my surprise when she was still ok letting me carry her unborn child! I wish I was exaggerating a bit but honestly I’m not. I was a mess that night🤣🤪🤣

I was sad because I didn’t think I would be allowed or ok to be pregnant anymore. I mean 6 babies is a lot. Not like 19 kids and counting a lot but a lot none the less. I explained that I was old and wasn’t sure I would be allowed to help but we decided to ask Dr Kaplan anyway and just see what he would say. I was basically in shock when the nurse emailed me back a few days later and said that after going through my files he would approve me! I still had to go get a ultrasound done in his office though to check and make sure he thought my uterus was strong and healthy enough. So I went and did that. I was still a little worried even then that they may say no. Again to my surprise they said everything looked perfect.

So I guess my old trusty uterus may have one more in her. Haha Im still honestly a bit shocked this is all happening again. My 5th journey! I would be lying if didn’t admit I’m a tiny bit nervous too. I really really want to help them have a perfect healthy baby. So I would appreciate any and all prayers, good thoughts, well wishes for us all and the precious baby!!!! I hope this pregnancy goes smoothly and we have no issues at all. I’ve already been praying for the baby they will be preparing to implant in me via IVF. I hope she or he is perfect and digs in deep. I hope my uterus is strong, fluffy and the perfect little home until baby is ready to come into this big world and go home with mommy and daddy!

So the details are as follows…

We are finishing up our contracts now. Just 17 days until meds start! All the shots…. I can honestly say I’m definitely not looking forward to that part. 😂 Lupron rage, headaches and the giant butt shots. My poor butt is already sore just thinking of it. Ricky on the other hand I think will secretly be excited on my grouchy days to stab me knowing he can torcher me a bit and get away with it. Then on March 28th as long as everything goes at planned I will be in Chicago getting pregnant again! I’m seriously so surprised I’m even saying that again. I always have so much going on in my world and honestly I think I love it that way. It’s busy and mostly fun!

I know this was a long one. Thanks to everyone as always for all the love and support. Especially to Ricky our kids and my parents who support me through all my crazy life adventures. Plus all my other friends and family who always offer support and love for us all. I’m beyond grateful and appreciative for everyone. It seems fitting to me that when I began this all years ago I started in Chicago and with Dr Kaplan and now here I am all these years later likely ending in Chicago with Dr Kaplan. How perfect is that. 🥰

Without further ado I would love for you to meet my new IPs and friends who now already feel like family too. Rodger and Karen. My heart is bursting with excitement to help you both! What an incredible journey we have both had to get us here together. I just know it was meant to be.

All my meds are here!!!
So many things to keep track of.

Change of plans.

Well last week we had some changes thrown at us. They decided that my transfer would be moved from the 16th to the 19th! So a bit of a bummer but all should be fine. Today I had another ultrasound and blood work appointment. My lining looks soooo good 15 now! I feel much better about this thick lining.

I’m back on the butt shots starting tomorrow. I’m definitely not excited about those. I think Ricky is though. He already told me I better be on my best behavior and not make him mad or he will really make them hurt. (Obviously he’s kidding) sometimes they hurt worse then others and I do complain that he does it on purpose.

We took the kids to the pumpkin patch yesterday and it was a great day but boy was it hot! Now I guess I better pack so we can fly out on Thursday. I am excited to eat at the restaurant Tommy Bahamas by our hotel. They have delicious chicken jerk tacos. Hopefully the weather is a bit better this time and we can get a couple beach days in also.

Today is also baby Leafs 2nd birthday!!! I can’t believe it’s been two years since I pushed him out butt first 😂. I know I say this all the time, but I honestly feel so lucky and blessed to have met such wonderful families who trust me so much. I love that I get to enjoy being pregnant and then get to give the baby back to its mom and dad to love and raise. Plus going home and sleeping for 8 hours after giving birth is like the best thing ever! I have been praying for this sweet baby boy already. I pray he really digs in and wants to stick around.

Today was ultrasound day.

Today I went for an ultrasound to make sure my body was responding well to the meds. I also get to start some estrogen today! This is great news because the Lupron makes me have hot flashes and be extra grouchy. The estrogen will level me out again and they will begin building my lining up to where they want it to put baby in. We have about 3 weeks before transfer now. The shots have been going well I’m basically a pro at them since I’ve done this 3 times already. I’m already excited and thinking about pregnancy tests and baby kicks. My next ultrasound is next week and I’ll do blood work with that one also. Until then I’ll keep praying for baby and my body to do what it needs too. let’s also pray for Ricky dealing with my slight mood issues and hot flashes. I’m stealing blankets and then kicking them all off. 😂

Just a silly pic!

Guess who’s back…

Yep it’s me again 😂. So our fun Florida trip wasn’t just about beaches and fun in the sun. I also had a drs appointment with the reproductive endocrinologist (RE) there! My last IPs (intended parents) have been wanting baby number 2 for a bit now. Our original plan was to wait until after our Disney trip in august/September. Obviously Disney is not happening for us this year 😢. So we decided may as well get into baby making. So we started calling our lawyer’s and making plans for my medical screening. Good news is screening went great he said my uterus looks perfect. That’s a big compliment from a RE! So as of now as long as things go according to plan with contracts I will be starting meds on July 20th!!! Bring on all the shots. Then the plan is to do the transfer of baby on August 20th. I’m already praying for this sweet baby. I want my belly to be a perfect home for him or her for the long haul. We would appreciate all the love and prayers and happy thoughts you all have to offer. I’ll be updating as often as I can. I seriously can’t believe I’ve had 5 babies and planning for a number 6! What an incredible body I have. I’m so happy I can use it to help other’s. We also got a super cute picture of us while social distancing of course. 😆 I can’t believe this guy is almost 2!

😂 Ricky Hates me 😂
He’s a great camera man though.

9 Weeks!

Well we skipped week 8… Oops time gets away from me! We had another dr appointment yesterday and had a ultrasound too! Baby B is starting to look like a actual real baby! I took a video and sent it to J so she could see. The baby was even wiggling around in there, so adorable! They also said the heart rate was 172 this time. I’m feeling really good other then just being so darn tired! Although the last couple of days I have felt like my energy is coming back woohoo. I do get slightly nauseous from time to time but nothing bad at all. I’m just getting excited for the second trimester so I can start feeling the baby move that’s my favorite part! I’ll go back to the dr at 12 weeks so that’s only 3 weeks away. It will just be a regular appointment I don’t think I will have an ultrasound or anything.

Now let’s see what baby B is doing this week!

Would you believe your baby is only an embryo for one more week and is already developing into a fetus? She’s now about one inch long, the size of a medium green olive (but no martinis, please). The head has straightened out and is more fully developed and the ears are continuing to grow, making baby look more human. Plus, toes are visible, and all of baby’s essential organs (heart, brain, kidneys, liver and lungs) have begun to develop. Your soon-to-be-fetus is also making spontaneous movements of her arms and legs now that minuscule muscles are beginning to develop, though you won’t feel your tiny dancer for at least another month or two. While it’s way too early to feel anything, it’s not too early to hear something (possibly). Your baby’s heart is developed enough — and has grown large enough — for its beats to be heard with a Doppler, a handheld ultrasound device that amplifies the lub-dub sound the heart makes. But don’t worry if your practitioner can’t pick up the sound of your baby’s heartbeat yet. It just means your shy gal is hiding in the corner of your uterus or has her back facing out, making it hard for the Doppler to find its target. In a few weeks, or at your next visit, that miraculous sound is certain to be audible for your listening pleasure.

So happy and so sad….

This is a long one guys!!! We had a great time while here! The best part by far was meeting the future Mommy and Daddy!!! We had such a great time I was so worried what if they decided they didnt like me or we just were not a good fit for each other. We ate at the Tavern at the Park. I got there SUPER early I was just to nervous to wait at the hotel anymore lol. But once they got there it was great! We talked about friends and family she has a big family that she’s very close with! I think that’s so nice! Ricky got along great with the intended Daddy they talked about sports and crap lol. They really remind me of us he seems so laid back and more quiet and she seems more out going! I just can’t believe how well we match up I feel like we really have a lot of the same feelings about how we want all of this to go. We really just want what is best for the baby. The food there was so yummy and so was the desert and we had some champagne to celebrate! Ricky and I went to the Lincoln Park Zoo that place was so much fun the polor bear was my favorite part! After the zoo we went out for drinks!  Before we leave we’re going to walk down to the Navy Pier and est at Portillo’s! Then its back on a plane to head home I’m excited to love on my kids but I’m sad we don’t get to spend more time with our new friends! Oh I almost forgot the best part!!!! Dr Kaplan said I have a beautiful uterus! And we got my calendar for transfer!!! Holy cow do I need to study this thing! Lindsay we have to buy me a planner like yours and you need to get me organized with it!!! As long as contracts are done by August 22 then I start my shots… scary right lol. So ill be back September 23 to get pregnant!!!! Woohoo I can’t wait to have a baby momma and daddy lol.


Getting excited!!!

Ok guys I know its been a while sorry. We have been so busy with life lol. In just two days I will finally be meeting my IM and ID (intended mommy and daddy)!!! I can’t tell you how excited and terrified I am all at the same time!!! What if its like the show catfish on MTV lol. I’m sure its not but a funny way to look at it! We will be meeting them Thursday night at 7:30 at a restaurant it looks super yummy! They asked if we wanted to meet Thursday or Friday but I just can’t wait a extra day lol. Then Friday morning we will be off to my med screening at 6:30 am.  I’m wondering how long it will take them to tell me everything looks ok. I know they have to do std tests so I’m sure that takes a week or so. I think we are also doing another psychological exam. Then we will be off to spend the day on the town! But I’m ready for a break I think it would be nice to lay in a hotel bed all day and watch tv and nap!! I’m pretty sure Ricky will not let that happen lol. I promise to update as soon as I get a chance after we meet in Chicago!

Going to Chicago!!!

Ok so I got my email from the nurse today and she said to start taking the birth control pills on sunday! Then she asked if me and Ricky could go for my medical screening on August 9th!!!! That’s only like 3 weeks away! My appointment is at 6:30 AM!!! So anyone that really knows me knows I HATE getting up early I don’t roll out of bed untill the last possible second lol. But because I’m so excited and nervous I’m sure I won’t be sleeping the night before anyway! I know lots of girls freak out about the screening and i am worried about it but I’m more freaked out about meeting my IP’s in person! It takes a lot to make me nervous but I really am about meeting them! I know 100% once were there it will be great its just the 3 weeks leading up to it now lol. So I guess after all this happens and my medical screening comes back great then it will be onto contracts (I’m least excited about this) I know it has to be done and its in everyone’s best interest but I just don’t like the idea at all it seems so business like and i dont want to step on anyones toes or anything. I can just see that getting awkward and I only want to build a amazing friendship! But then it will be all the meds and SHOTS!!! I’m also not super excited for that lol. So that’s all for now and ill update soon guys!!!