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This means 4 days past a 5 day transfer. I still haven’t tested and it’s so hard but I just can’t go through what I did last time. So I’m waiting. I don’t know how long I’ll wait but for now I’m waiting. Each day is a day closer to my beta blood test.

Yesterday I unpacked all my stuff from my suitcase and cleaned a bit. I also ordered my groceries and watched some crap tv. (90 day Fiancé the other way) 😂 I’m addicted. I still have pregnancy tests left over from my last cycle and I “hid” them from myself in the bathroom closet. Obviously this was dumb because I’m not a toddler and I know they are there… Ricky said I should give them to him and he would hide them but I already know that would be way WAY to risky. I don’t want to test but I like knowing where they are just in case.

I will say Wednesday night between 11 pm and 6 am I got up to pee ***6*** times. I mean I usually get up and pee at night but definitely not 6 times. Then when I was getting the kids ready to leave for school yesterday I swear I smelled dog poo in the dining room. Like the smell was so strong I made everyone look for it before we could leave. We never found any poo… Also I can smell the lemon grass in my oil diffuser still and I haven’t had it on for two days. Ricky says he can’t smell it.

That’s the only things I have really noticed so far. Still a bit of cramping here or there but nothing big. I’m trying to not over analyze everything but I also don’t want to not make mention of things. The hard part is all the meds I’m on make my body think it’s pregnant already so it’s really so hard to know anything. I didn’t pee a ton last night so maybe the peeing was a fluke?

This morning I got to watch my nephew Travis for a few hours so that helped keep me busy and occupied. Then he left and my kids decided to go with my mom also. So now the house is so quiet with Ricky down stairs working. I already made dinner also. It’s only 12:30 😂. I made white chicken chili. I have been seeing it all over Facebook and it looked delicious. I guess I will watch more tv and maybe nap. That always helps pass the time and I love napping.

Puff got a bath and a conditioning treatment last night to keep me busy. She obviously wasn’t amused 😆.
Sweet baby snuggles to keep me pre occupied!
He got to nap before me 😂

Two days after transfer.

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Well not quite. At 2:00 ish it will be 2 days since that’s actually about the time they put the baby in me 😂. I had some mild cramping after and that’s about it. It’s so hard for me because obviously you try to feel every little thing going on in your body hoping it’s a sign of things working and baby growing. I never really get any symptoms of pregnancy anyway. I guess that’s why I enjoy being pregnant so much lol. Once I’m for sure pregnant I do usually break out a bit more then normal and I get tired the first trimester but that’s about it.

Our plane ride home last night was crappy to say the least. They made me check a bag even though I knew it would fit. Plus I had specifically asked the people at the desk where you check bags and the man assured me it would be fine. Then as I’m getting on the plane the woman tells me I have to check it!!! Ugggg I was so frustrated. So by the time we got on there was no more open rows so Ricky and I had to sit with strangers. Plus the lady next to me decided the open middle seat was her’s. Not to mention her bag clearly didn’t fit under her seat.

I know it was dumb to get so frustrated over such dumb things but my hormones are crazy and so therefore I’m crazy too! 😂 I’m glad to be home though in my own bed. I slept so great last night. Our dog and cat missed us a lot. 💓 They slept with us last night.

I’m still terrified to test this time and feel the way I did last time. But I’m also terrified of waiting and pretending it’s all going to be perfect and then getting blindsided by the dr calling. I do still have some tests left over from last time in case I decide I want to test. I think I’m going to just enjoy the unknown for awhile longer this time though.

Thanks as always for all the prayers and encouragement. Hopefully this time everything works out perfectly and I get to share much happier news with everyone.

This lady and all her stuff… 🙄
Then she shoved it even closer to me.

Transfer is completed ✅

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I’m happy to report that the transfer is completed. Everything seemed to go smoothly. So I’m considering myself pregnant at this point 😂. At least until the blood test tells me otherwise.

On my way there I prayed a lot. I always get anxious before transfers. It’s so many emotions you feel and all the estrogen I’m on doesn’t help. We were listening to the radio and a song came on and it seemed pretty fitting. I love that when I’m worried or stressed God can still tell me things are going to be ok.

I got to see the picture of the embryo before they put him in but I couldn’t take a picture or anything. It looked very similar to the last embryo. I could tell it was already hatching. That’s a good thing!

In 10 days I will have my blood beta draw! After the transfer Ricky and I decided to go eat at an Italian restaurant the pasta was SO good! I will still be on all my meds so butt shots, suppository’s and estrogen keep on going.

This was the song we heard right before we went in. 🥰

So much water before transfer!
We also saw this funny truck on the way there. 😂
My last drinks were mojito’s they were so good!

Tomorrow is transfer day!

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I had my last blood draw here at the clinic on Friday. They called to say everything was great and transfer was all set for Monday at 1:30! So I have to show up at 1:00 for the appointment. I’m so excited for this transfer and feeling so hopeful. It’s been great spending time with J and K and baby Leaf! I sure hope and pray he is a big brother soon! My butt shots are still zero fun. Actually I feel like my butt hurts more this time. Just tender and sore. Probably because I didn’t take much of a break.

I got to have some beach time so that’s nice too! I love the ocean so much. I also finally bought my new Louis Vuitton bag I have been wanting for the last 3 years!!! It’s just perfect. 😍 I also got my nails done before I came for some extra good luck feelings. Thanks Cari.

I almost forgot we also took a kayak trip while we were here!!! It was super fun. You will all be surprised to know that Ricky was actually the one who planned this idea! I was so excited. I was quite worried we would flip over but actually we did great. Like a good husband he did all the paddling while I enjoyed the view.

I’ll post tomorrow after transfer is done. Let’s all pray for this little embryo boy. Hopefully he really finds my uterus extra plush and comfortable for the next 9ish months. Here are some pictures to enjoy.

Breakfast views 😍
They have decided to make the beach bigger while we are here.
Just laying out for some vitamin sea! 😆
We decided to take a kayaking trip!
It was really pretty
My new baby!!! 😆 🥰 I’m so in love.
Ricky was so excited to show Leaf how to play with his new hot wheels race track.

Ultrasound to check my lining.

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Yesterday we did an ultrasound and blood work to check my uterine lining and blood work for my estrogen levels. Good news was my ultrasound went great and my lining looks to be even better then it did last time!!! I’m at a 10 with still a little over a week to go! So they said we can keep everything the same now. Meaning my meds. I’m still taking Lupron each night and estrogen pills 3 times a day. I’m waiting for them to call me today to let me know when I will be starting all my other meds. Pills and butt shots. 😔☹️😢 I already feel bad for my butt. 😂

We will be flying out on the 15th in the morning and as far as I know transfer still looks good for Friday the 16th. I’ve been praying for this next transfer of this sweet baby boy! I’m excited for this next try. I’m honestly not sure if I’m going to test this time after transfer or not. This was obviously the first time I have ever not been able to share excitement and good news. So I’m honestly scared to test again and not see good news and feeling as bad as I did last time. I know I will feel bad even if I don’t test and get bad news. I’m just not sure what I will do.

Thanks as always to everyone for all the love and support. I’ll be sure to update more this coming week.

See that triple stripe! 🥰 I want to be nice and fluffy and cozy for baby boy!!!
Here’s where some of my crazy comes from. 😂

Re starting meds.

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Well here is my update. After stopping the meds my hormones thankfully balanced back out and I felt so much better. I just had to wait for my period. I was told and worried it was going to be so bad with my lining being so thick. Thankfully it wasn’t as bad as I anticipated. I’m back on the birth control pills and will be starting the Lupron shots again on Monday. They gave me a 10 day window for for the next transfer. Being October 14th-23rd! They are going to work on getting this date narrowed down a bit more since I can’t take 10 days off work to be in Florida 😂. We do have to go back to Florida but there are definitely worse places to have to go. Maybe this next time there will be a bit more sun so we can enjoy the beach. I joked with Ricky that we should go back to Disney again for a day or two! He was a firm no. I just love the happiest place on earth. 🥰 I’m excited for another try and praying this one all works out.

I enjoyed this delicious treat box from my friends. I totally cried when it was delivered.
I’ve been enjoying drinking 😝
My heating pillow I usually use for my sore butt worked great for my belly cramps.

Last ultrasound!

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Today was my last ultrasound and blood work! I was a bit nervous because my lining is only at an 8 but we still have a week to still build and we are upping my estrogen and starting the awful butt shots tomorrow. 😫😫😫 This week I decide last minute to do the craziest thing I have ever done! On Tuesday night I planed a 3 day Disney trip!!! You guys this was insane. So we fly out tomorrow morning at like 5am then we fly back to STL Monday morning drop the kids off with my parents, then we fly right back to Florida Tuesday morning at like 7am!!!! 😳😳😳 The transfer is all a go for the 20th. All my meds are going to be crazy for the next few weeks. Let’s all just keep praying for this little sweet baby. I’ll be sure to update through this next week.

Look how happy we are
Look at that triple stripe!!!

More GOOD news!!!

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Ok so me and ricky were able to talk about everything last night and I have too say we both like them. Soooo we are going to do a phone call with them if we both still like each other then we will be officially matched!!! Wow I never thought this would happen!!! I feel like things are really speeding up now I don’t know how much the couple would want me to share so ill just say they live in California lol. If things move along I may ask if I can share more on here about them. With talking to the lady at the agency she said that if things go right we could be doing a embryo transfer in JULY!!!! Wow that’s fast… I know they were already talking about contracts and lawyers. Thats the part I’m not excited about!!! That seems scary to me. I know its part of the process but I just know I’m not looking forward to that particular part… I am glad she said in her papers that she would like to have a friendship. I hope we can feel comfortable on our first phone call and continue to talk and build a relationship!  I really feel for this couple already it must take a strong marriage to go through the things they have and are going through. I hope I’m the one that can help bring the love and joy of a baby to them!!!