Today was our first ultrasound the skype was not working as great as we had all hoped but the lady doing the ultrasound was so sweet and understanding! I’m sure I was her crazy for the day lol. I have to say I have never had a ultrasound so early and it looked like nothing was in there. I finally got the courage to ask if she could see a baby and thank God she did!!! She showed me and it was so tiny it was super hard to see! It had a heart beat she said it was 120! We were all so happy and excited!!! I have another ultrasound next friday and Jon and Molly are going to make it for this one!!! As soon as my ultrasound was done I went and picked the kids up and came straight home for a nap!!!! I’m always so shocked how tired I am in the first trimester!
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Just a little info…
I feel like at some point all surrogates have to address the topic of what people think or say. So hear is mine. This is how I feel so far about it. Everyones first comment. How will you feel giving the baby away. Well I’m not giving anything away I’m giving it back. Its there baby not mine. Do I love this baby YES I have loved him/her before I ever met Jon and Molly. Will I be sad to not feel the baby move in me anymore I’m sure I will. But I will also know that this baby is wrapped in its mommy and daddys arms who will love and protect him/her just as I am now. Some people say its wrong. If God wants them to have a baby they would be able too. Well I think your cruel and wrong. Would you tell someone born with out a leg they couldn’t get a prosthetic? That if God wanted them to have two legs they would? I doubt it. God gives us the ability to do all kinds of amazing things with science! Then there are the ones that say they should just adopt there are lots of kids that need loving parents. There are tons of children that need homes. But where are all your adopted kids? Why were you so selfish to pop out 1, 2, 3 or more kids without helping the ones you clearly know need it? Also have you looked into adoption its not as easy as one would think. Its lots of money and time and heartbreak. Then there is still no garentee you get a baby in the end of all that! Then you hear people say what if you want to keep it! (Yes people say that) well if I want to keep a baby I’m more then able to have one with my husband and its much less work on me!!!! Then people will say well I bet its for all the money (like I’m getting millions lol) well your wrong its not! I had to talk with many people and go through lots of screening to make sure I wasn’t after just money or there baby and that I am not crazy lol. If I wanted to just make some extra cash a much easier pain free way would be i dont know a second job!!! As a surrogate you really get no compensation untill your pregnant and thats a ultrasound conformation! So all the shots I give myself and the giant ones in the butt all the pills and patches and vaginal suppositorys yep thats all for nothing! thats all because I love a baby and a family and I want to do this! I truly believe this is my gift to give to the world. God has chosen ME to help a wonderful family. I know this is not something everyone could do. But this is something I know I can. I already feel like I am so blessed to have met such amazing people that I may have never met other then this. I feel blessed that God is allowing me to yet again carry a child and feel the joy that I get from that. I feel blessed that not only is God allowing me to help make a mommy and daddy but I’m helping make grandmas and grandpas and aunts and uncles and cousins too!!! I want to again thank everyone who suppots me and my family and keep praying for us all!!!
Last beta is in!!!!
It was 2, 134!!!! Thats 17dpt I think I’m adding that right lol. The nurse xalled me to say our first ultrasound will be next friday!!!!! Woohooo. But now I’m sad Molly and Jon can’t make it 😦 I’m crushed for her… I know she wants nothing more then to be there but she just can’t so she is sending me her ipad to face time with them so they can still see baby Jolly!!! The nurse said we may or may not see the heartbeat with the first ultrasound it may be the next. Then we have another ultrasound the 25th and they will be able to come for that one so were all so excited!!! I’m also having my first craving I think green olives I can’t get enough just thinking about them makes my mouth water lol. Also I was starving today by lunch time I couldn’t wait to eat lol!!!
Next beta is in!!!
So my numbers came back at 688!!! Woohoo that’s more then doubling!!!! I’m so excited I have another beta on Thursday and then we will do ultrasounds!!!! We are all so happy. Ricky has nicknamed the baby Jolly for Jon and Molly lol I think its cute like a little celebrity! I still have no symptoms lucky me I know. I feel great pregnant. I just get a little more tired and pee a lot lol.
BETA BETA READ ALL ABOUT IT!!!!
So I went in at 8am thinking the faster I go in the faster we will know!!! Well its 2:00 and they finally called!!!! They said anything over 25 is good and I’m at 109!!!! Grow Baby Grow!!!!! I have to go back on monday to re test they want to make sure the numbers double like they should!!! Thanks guys for praying lets keep it up!!!

I peed again tonight
I had more tests so I felt like I should try again while ricky left for taco bell! He wouldn’t have let me test again lol. Anyway I peed and there it was finally a second tiny tiny faint line!!!!! I instantly started crying and thanking God!!! I know he always takes care of me! Its so hard for me sometimes to understand his timing! I have zero patience lol. I then called Molly and told her!! She was not as excited as I was but I know she has to be cautious with all this! This makes me feel so much better though and less stressful. I knew my headaches were a bit much its been like three days off and on!!!! My heart is filled with love for this baby right now. Its amazing how many people love him or her so much to get him or her here!!! Thanks again everyone for praying and please don’t stop we have a long way to go. I hope we have good big beta numbers on thursday!!!!
Today was the big day to pee
I held it all night and couldn’t wait I have felt all kinds of symptoms like headaches and nausea and I’m breaking out like a twelve year old. But the meds I’m on can do all this too they make your body think its pregnant! So I called molly and peed unfortunately it just showed one line. So it looks like I’m not pregnant or its just not registering yet. I’m hoping by Thursday my blood test will show something! I feel very sad and let down I love their baby and them. I’m sure this is SO much harder for them. Ill just keep praying and hope for good news soon!!!
I’m going crazy!!!!
It has only been 3 days!!!! Into my 2ww!!! We are all so excited and nervous. I’m trying to tune into any and every little thing my body may be feeling or doing! I will say the day after and yestersay I had some mild cramping nothing horrible but noticeable. The first day I thought this was maybe in my head (wishful thinking) but then yesterday it kept happening. So it was true! So what do I do GOOGLE. Bad idea lol it says it could be many things it could be great the baby implanting (what were all hoping) or just from the procedure. So we have all talked about poas (peeing on a stick) I have always said I just want to do what they want! They said whatever I want!!! Lol but we ultimately decided we will. Were doing it together Sunday morning. I have been praying that we see something just a little line. Ill be so so sad if this dosnt work. I know it sounds crazy but I love this baby that little ball of cells is a baby that I want so very badly to give to Jon and Molly. I have never lost a baby myself and I know this will not be easy for me if I don’t turn out to be pregnant. Then I think if this will be hard for me how incredibly hard this will be for them. I also know if this dosnt work we will keep trying so that makes me feel good too. Also if the test does show negative that dosnt mean it dosnt have time to show positive. We will still have the beta test that will tell us for sure! Ill be sure to update sunday morning so please keep thinking and praying for us!
Transfer went great!!!
We got there just on time we got a little turned around lol. We got to wear great outfits lol. I was so SO nervous the night before. I didn’t really sleep at all and was so worried the whole way there. As soon as I walked in the doors and seen Molly and Jon I felt great!
I know this is all for this baby we all love so very much!!! Now I’m in the 2ww (2 week wait) we decided to just wait a few days and see how we all feel about testing early. (peeing on sticks) lol on one hand I can’t wait to test on the other I don’t want to be let down or more importantly let them down!!! Its just to much to process right now. I’m feeling great I stayed in bed the whole time and drank lots of water. I’m hoping to start feeling some signs soon! The baby was 6 days old and they magnified it 1000 times for us to see him or her!!! It was honestly one of the most amazing things I have ever seen! I’m hoping and praying this baby is digging deep in there for a long 9 months!!! That’s all I really have for now thanks for reading and please keep praying for us all!!!
BUTT SHOT!!!
I have the best cousin Barb in the world lol she came all the way from her house in st. Peters to troy just to stab me in the butt lol. I was so worried and so was ricky he didn’t want to hurt me or do it wrong lol. So I just bent over and she jabbed it in there lol. I was shocked I felt nothing!!! So now I only have four days untill we leave and five untill I get pregnant!!!! (I hope) I talked with molly and she is excited and nervous too! I’m glad I’m not the only one. So now I just have to pray ricky does as well as Barb did!!! If not ill have to pay her to come over every night lol.





