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Woohoo 12 weeks!!!!

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Its officially the safe zone!!! I’m so glad now I’m going to tell kailynn this week! I’m not really sure how much she will understand she’s only three but she is also very smart!!! I think she will be happy to know another one will not be moving in to play with all her stuff lol. Im feeling pretty good other then I feel like I’m getting big fast! I was thinking the other day about how I never thought I would get to this point and now look at me!!! I’m soooo glad God blessed me with such a great mommy and daddy to have a baby for!!! I’m still amazed that in like 6 months I get to give the most amazing gift to such a deserving family! I try to put myself in there shoes as much as I can. I’m sure they are so excited and worried just like any first time parents but there excitement and worry is so much more they have prayed and dreamed for this and its finally happening. I don’t think I will ever be able to understand the emotions they are going through but I try!  People still ask a lot about me and how I will feel after I give them there baby and don’t I love jolly… I’m finding it hard to answer that question I get why they would ask but its hard to make people understand.  I went into this knowing its not my baby. I was actively seeking a family that needed my help. I’m very sure I will be a bit sad not getting to feel baby Jolly everyday or see Jolly everyday. That’s also the perk I get to go home and sleep ALL night!!  It really is not the same as my own pregnancy I don’t feel like this is my baby its going to come out and look nothing like my kids I think that will be weird for me lol. As far as loving this baby I love Jolly with all my heart just like I do my own kids but like I said its just different! I’m not sure if people will ever really understand I think only other surrogates get what I’m saying and that’s ok. I tell everyone this is not for everyone but I feel like its for me! Now for the fun stuff what is Jolly up to thus week!!!             How your baby’s growing:

The most dramatic development this week: reflexes. Your baby’s fingers will soon begin to open and close, his toes will curl, his eye muscles will clench, and his mouth will make sucking movements. In fact, if you prod your abdomen, your baby will squirm in response, although you won’t be able to feel it. His intestines, which have grown so fast that they protrude into the umbilical cord, will start to move into his abdominal cavity about now, and his kidneys will begin excreting urine into his bladder.Meanwhile, nerve cells are multiplying rapidly, and in your baby’s brain, synapses are forming furiously. His face looks unquestionably human: His eyes have moved from the sides to the front of his head, and his ears are right where they should be. From crown to rump, your baby-to-be is just over 2 inches long (about the size of a lime) and weighs half an ounce.
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I’m glad it looks smaller today lol.

Just a little info…

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I feel like at some point all surrogates have to address the topic of what people think or say. So hear is mine. This is how I feel so far about it. Everyones first comment. How will you feel giving the baby away. Well I’m not giving anything away I’m giving it back. Its there baby not mine. Do I love this baby YES I have loved him/her before I ever met Jon and Molly. Will I be sad to not feel the baby move in me anymore I’m sure I will. But I will also know that this baby is wrapped in its mommy and daddys arms who will love and protect him/her just as I am now. Some people say its wrong. If God wants them to have a baby they would be able too. Well I think your cruel and wrong. Would you tell someone born with out a leg they couldn’t get a prosthetic? That if God wanted them to have two legs they would? I doubt it. God gives us the ability to do all kinds of amazing things with science! Then there are the ones that say they should just adopt there are lots of kids that need loving parents. There are tons of children that need homes. But where are all your adopted kids? Why were you so selfish to pop out 1, 2, 3 or more kids without helping the ones you clearly know need it? Also have you looked into adoption its not as easy as one would think. Its lots of money and time and heartbreak. Then there is still no garentee you get a baby in the end of all that! Then you hear people say what if you want to keep it! (Yes people say that) well if I want to keep a baby I’m more then able to have one with my husband and its much less work on me!!!! Then people will say well I bet its for all the money (like I’m getting millions lol) well your wrong its not! I had to talk with many people and go through lots of screening to make sure I wasn’t after just money or there baby and that I am not crazy lol. If I wanted to just make some extra cash a much easier pain free way would be i dont know a second job!!! As a surrogate you really get no compensation untill your pregnant and thats a ultrasound conformation! So all the shots I give myself and the giant ones in the butt all the pills and patches and vaginal suppositorys yep thats all for nothing! thats all because I love a baby and a family and I want to do this! I truly believe this is my gift to give to the world. God has chosen ME to help a wonderful family. I know this is not something everyone could do. But this is something I know I can. I already feel like I am so blessed to have met such amazing people that I may have never met other then this. I feel blessed that God is allowing me to yet again carry a child and feel the joy that I get from that. I feel blessed that not only is God allowing me to help make a mommy and daddy but I’m helping make grandmas and grandpas and aunts and uncles and cousins too!!! I want to again thank everyone who suppots me and my family and keep praying for us all!!!

I LOVE THEM!!!!

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Omg omg she is SOOOO sweet!!! I can’t believe it went so well. I was already on the line when they got on. the lady from the agency was a little late but we did just fine without her! I’m glad we seemed to just click. well me and the (Im)intended mommy! (Id) intended daddy didn’t say much lol. I think it was more for me and her anyway! I just can’t express enough how happy I am right now I’m so glad now that God had put the obstacles in my way that he did! Its all for the greater good! So for anyone not to this point yet we talked about basics our jobs having twins what we wanted our relationship to be like ect… I am so happy they want to be as involved as they can be and I want the same! So now its more waiting grrrr. I have never wished for a period to come but boy am I now lol!!!!

Match call!!!!

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Ok so I just got a email from my agency that we get to do our match call with the couple on this SATURDAY at 2:00!!!! I’m SO SO scared and nervous. I haven’t said this yet but I like them so much already they seem so sweet and loving in there information they gave me. Not that I didn’t like the other profiles I saw but the only way I can describe it is like house hunting. I really liked the first one and two but then when you see the next your like WOW this is really the one! I just feel it I know lots could still go wrong but I’m trusting God to send me the perfect couple for us and our family. I’m so very excited to hear their voices and talk with them I hope the conversation is easy and flows well. I really hope there is a connection for all of us. I’m most worried there will be a lot of awkward silence. I don’t know why I worry about that I mean I’m the most outgoing person ever lol. This is a huge step for us last time I got to this point they called the day before to say the couple had a family emergency and had to leave the country I hope I get no crazy calls tomorrow! Please keep praying and I can’t wait to update Saturday! !!!

Waiting again…

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Ok well there is another couple that likes me!!!! I LOVE them I have a amazing feeling about them there doctor is going to look at my med records (I’m not worried) I have been cleared from some of the top doctors in the country already!!! After that as long as nothing crazy happenes ill be able to do my match call with them!!! I hate to get my hopes up yet again…. but I know God will bring me the right couple and it will be a amazing thing for all of us. They live in Chicago like the last couple so that’s great news!!!! I love the idea of them getting to come to doctors apointments and hopefully spending time together to get to know each other!!! I’m hoping to have a great friendship with this couple. I also had to take my psychology test and boy was that crazy lol. It was almost 600 questions all true or false but some were so odd like do you have unusual sex WHAT???? Lol I mean what do they think is unusual I think were pretty usual kinnda people! they also asked if I ever talk to people or animals that no one else sees lol and they asked like three times if I loved my mom! Good news I passed lol. I wanted to fill one out all crazy as a joke but I figured this was not a joke kind of time lol. So once my med records are cleared we can do our phone call and get moving. I hope this all goes fast I know they said it may take there doctor till next week to go over the papers but I hope he can make some time to do it soon I suck at waiting! So lets all keep praying and I hope I get some great news fast!!!