Woohoo 12 weeks!!!!

Its officially the safe zone!!! I’m so glad now I’m going to tell kailynn this week! I’m not really sure how much she will understand she’s only three but she is also very smart!!! I think she will be happy to know another one will not be moving in to play with all her stuff lol. Im feeling pretty good other then I feel like I’m getting big fast! I was thinking the other day about how I never thought I would get to this point and now look at me!!! I’m soooo glad God blessed me with such a great mommy and daddy to have a baby for!!! I’m still amazed that in like 6 months I get to give the most amazing gift to such a deserving family! I try to put myself in there shoes as much as I can. I’m sure they are so excited and worried just like any first time parents but there excitement and worry is so much more they have prayed and dreamed for this and its finally happening. I don’t think I will ever be able to understand the emotions they are going through but I try!  People still ask a lot about me and how I will feel after I give them there baby and don’t I love jolly… I’m finding it hard to answer that question I get why they would ask but its hard to make people understand.  I went into this knowing its not my baby. I was actively seeking a family that needed my help. I’m very sure I will be a bit sad not getting to feel baby Jolly everyday or see Jolly everyday. That’s also the perk I get to go home and sleep ALL night!!  It really is not the same as my own pregnancy I don’t feel like this is my baby its going to come out and look nothing like my kids I think that will be weird for me lol. As far as loving this baby I love Jolly with all my heart just like I do my own kids but like I said its just different! I’m not sure if people will ever really understand I think only other surrogates get what I’m saying and that’s ok. I tell everyone this is not for everyone but I feel like its for me! Now for the fun stuff what is Jolly up to thus week!!!             How your baby’s growing:

The most dramatic development this week: reflexes. Your baby’s fingers will soon begin to open and close, his toes will curl, his eye muscles will clench, and his mouth will make sucking movements. In fact, if you prod your abdomen, your baby will squirm in response, although you won’t be able to feel it. His intestines, which have grown so fast that they protrude into the umbilical cord, will start to move into his abdominal cavity about now, and his kidneys will begin excreting urine into his bladder.Meanwhile, nerve cells are multiplying rapidly, and in your baby’s brain, synapses are forming furiously. His face looks unquestionably human: His eyes have moved from the sides to the front of his head, and his ears are right where they should be. From crown to rump, your baby-to-be is just over 2 inches long (about the size of a lime) and weighs half an ounce.

I’m glad it looks smaller today lol.